I'm Listening

I have so much to offer this world. I have much to say and share but at the moment I feel so trapped; A prisoner not of my mind but of my body. Being attacked by physical pain everyday. Perhaps this attack is more of a guidance back on to my path, it could have been that I wandered astray. Though I must have missed my turn by miles because there's no ignoring this. I promise, I'm listening. 

Rationalize

It's getting close to 3am and I have been woken up in discomfort with this back  injury. After a half hour of trying to get back to sleep I grab my book, "The Road Less Travelled" and begin reading. I am on the section titled "Grace" and the sub header of "Entropy and Original Sin". Dr Peck writes that Entropy is the 2nd law of thermodynamics and essentially should be pulling the universe to a less organized state, however that is not the case. Over centuries the miracle of evolution has been and still is present. Evolution goes against this natural law and this is not just with evolution of species this is evolution of the self (spiritual development). So what is the law the pushes us to grow against the natural law of resistance, it is the force of love (which Dr Peck defines as "the will to extend one's self for the purpose of nurturing one's own or another's spiritual growth). 

Spiritual growth is something that is hard work. We are faced with challenges and change in our life which we can either view as something negative or we can use that as a teacher to continuously grow our whole life. What I found interesting about what Dr Peck brought up is that laziness is omnipresent and that laziness is the cheif enemy to extending one self into new areas of thought, responsibility or maturation. I notice in myself that I may try to circumvent a problem first before facing head on, an example of a form of laziness.

Furthermore, this back story brings me to a realization of rationalization and a questioning of my world view. Dr Peck continues to state that laziness can disguise itself in other forms such as  rationalizations. So I stop reading, realize I titled my writing platform, "Rational-eyes" (a title that made sense at the time) and begin to become even more aware of my intellectualizing patterns. I am hyper aware and observant of why people do the things they do therefore I will observe a situation and try to make sense of it or bring reason into the equation, which fulfills the definition of rational. Extending on that, to rationalize is to create an excuse or a more attractive explanation for a problem or situation and all of sudden it clicked, this is a defense mechanism I use frequently to protect myself. I try to be logical instead of just feeling what is going on which in turn has me bottling up emotions. Wow, self revalation. 

Noticing I place this sort of logic on all situations, even as to why I have chronic episodes of disc herniations, this becomes another adventure on my journey to changing these ingrained patterns. In conclusion we all will be working against this force of laziness, which ever form it shows it self in, our whole life if we choose to continue to develop and spiritually evolve towards godhood. 

Miracles

Below is a wonderful excerpt from the current book I am reading, "The Road Less Travelled" by Dr. Scott M. Peck. He speaks of miracles and how they are everywhere and in our day to day life, we don't need to wait for the parting of the seas to believe in miracles.  I am grateful for these daily miracles life has to offer; amazing people, incredible scenery, the ability to learn and the capacity to love. 

"Perception of the miraculous requires no faith or assumptions. It is simply a matter of paying full and close attention to the givens of life, I.e. To what is ever so present that it is usually taken for granted. The true wonder of the world is available everywhere, in the minutest parts of our bodies, in the vast expanse of the cosmos and in the interconnectedness of these and all things. We are apart of a finely balanced ecosystem. We are individuals but also parts of a greater whole, united in something vast and beautiful beyond description."