I'm Listening

I have so much to offer this world. I have much to say and share but at the moment I feel so trapped; A prisoner not of my mind but of my body. Being attacked by physical pain everyday. Perhaps this attack is more of a guidance back on to my path, it could have been that I wandered astray. Though I must have missed my turn by miles because there's no ignoring this. I promise, I'm listening. 

Rationalize

It's getting close to 3am and I have been woken up in discomfort with this back  injury. After a half hour of trying to get back to sleep I grab my book, "The Road Less Travelled" and begin reading. I am on the section titled "Grace" and the sub header of "Entropy and Original Sin". Dr Peck writes that Entropy is the 2nd law of thermodynamics and essentially should be pulling the universe to a less organized state, however that is not the case. Over centuries the miracle of evolution has been and still is present. Evolution goes against this natural law and this is not just with evolution of species this is evolution of the self (spiritual development). So what is the law the pushes us to grow against the natural law of resistance, it is the force of love (which Dr Peck defines as "the will to extend one's self for the purpose of nurturing one's own or another's spiritual growth). 

Spiritual growth is something that is hard work. We are faced with challenges and change in our life which we can either view as something negative or we can use that as a teacher to continuously grow our whole life. What I found interesting about what Dr Peck brought up is that laziness is omnipresent and that laziness is the cheif enemy to extending one self into new areas of thought, responsibility or maturation. I notice in myself that I may try to circumvent a problem first before facing head on, an example of a form of laziness.

Furthermore, this back story brings me to a realization of rationalization and a questioning of my world view. Dr Peck continues to state that laziness can disguise itself in other forms such as  rationalizations. So I stop reading, realize I titled my writing platform, "Rational-eyes" (a title that made sense at the time) and begin to become even more aware of my intellectualizing patterns. I am hyper aware and observant of why people do the things they do therefore I will observe a situation and try to make sense of it or bring reason into the equation, which fulfills the definition of rational. Extending on that, to rationalize is to create an excuse or a more attractive explanation for a problem or situation and all of sudden it clicked, this is a defense mechanism I use frequently to protect myself. I try to be logical instead of just feeling what is going on which in turn has me bottling up emotions. Wow, self revalation. 

Noticing I place this sort of logic on all situations, even as to why I have chronic episodes of disc herniations, this becomes another adventure on my journey to changing these ingrained patterns. In conclusion we all will be working against this force of laziness, which ever form it shows it self in, our whole life if we choose to continue to develop and spiritually evolve towards godhood. 

Miracles

Below is a wonderful excerpt from the current book I am reading, "The Road Less Travelled" by Dr. Scott M. Peck. He speaks of miracles and how they are everywhere and in our day to day life, we don't need to wait for the parting of the seas to believe in miracles.  I am grateful for these daily miracles life has to offer; amazing people, incredible scenery, the ability to learn and the capacity to love. 

"Perception of the miraculous requires no faith or assumptions. It is simply a matter of paying full and close attention to the givens of life, I.e. To what is ever so present that it is usually taken for granted. The true wonder of the world is available everywhere, in the minutest parts of our bodies, in the vast expanse of the cosmos and in the interconnectedness of these and all things. We are apart of a finely balanced ecosystem. We are individuals but also parts of a greater whole, united in something vast and beautiful beyond description."

A Blessing

Each day a blessing

Every person a chance

To love unconditionally

And let minds expanse 

A simple thank you is enough

To bring gratitude to the day 

It is the bridge to love 

With high vibrations on display

Thank You

A simple thank you is all that is needed for gratitude to start multiplying the amazing things in our lives. Gratitude is the highest vibration of love and allows us to go beyond what we think is possible. Gratitude allows us to connect with the power of the universe. Nothing is  too small to be grateful for. With gratitude we can turn negative situations into positive situations and start experiencing life with zest and vigour for what is and what is to come!

Below is an excerpt from the book The Power by Rhonda Byrne:

"Give thanks for your senses: your eyes that see, your ears that hear, your mouth that tastes, your nose that smells and your skin that lets you feel. Give thanks for the legs you walk on, your hands that you use to do almost everything, your voice that enables you to express yourself and communicate with others. Give thanks for your amazing immune system that keeps you well or heals you, and for all your organs that maintain your body immaculately so you can live. Give thanks for the magnificence of your human mind that no computer technology in the world can duplicate. Your entire body is the greatest laboratory on the planet and there's nothing that can come even close to replicating it's magnificence. You are a miracle!"

The Power

As I continue on this blessed journey healing my back I am back to reading through books pretty quickly. Yesterday I started reading "The  Power". This is by Rhonda Byrne and is a follow up book to "The Secret".

The main point in this book is to use our imagination and create our life exactly as we want it by using the force of love. After reading this book and reminding myself the healing power is always within me I begin to really monitor my internal dialogue. It is my job to change how I talk about this injury and my story moving forward. In the words of Rhonda Byrne I must, "...love as much as possible every day. If [I] can just love and adore everything [I] possibly can today, look for and feel the things [I] love, and turn away from the things [I] don't love, [my] tomorrows will overflow with the untold happiness of everything [I] want and love". 

Help for Help

Lying on the sidewalk waiting for a family member to pick me up feeling so helpless at this time of injury. Unable to walk long distances at the moment I am forced to ask for help. I had to call for a ride for 10 blks. Why is it so hard to ask for help? I have grown up teaching myself how to be self sufficient, independent and basically never needing to ask for help. When I ask for help I feel like I am bugging the person, taking them away from what they would rather be doing. Growing up when I have asked my Mom for help it was followed by immediate tension in her body, followed by a big sigh, followed by me panicking and saying, "ok ok never mind" then ended by her getting mad and answering with a snarky "fine". This had conditioned me to figure out things on my own, I even get tight in my body when I think of this situation. Asking for help has always been a stressful thing to me so I try to avoid. 

Acknowledging it is a skill to ask for help, it is just as much of a skill to learn how to respond appropriately to being asked for help. It takes guts, courage and most of all level of comfort to put oneself out on the line and ask for help. So if you are the receiver of that question for help remain calm, breathe, listen to the whole request, take a second to quietly think to yourself then respond with a clear answer.